I finished the novel that I had been reading (How to Kill a Rock Star) and even though it was a bit predictable as the ending approached, there were still some of those moments where I shuddered and shivered and just felt insanely alive. I set the book down when I was done, shook my [...]
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After talking with my partner Friday night, it seems that I was finally able to reach out and start talking; to an extent, I let my friends in more than I ever had before. It happened over dinner last night.
We went out with a group of friends, all of whom know that I’m itching to [...]
Continue reading about Eating Disorder Recovery Sometimes Means Revisiting Memories
This week has been a bit of a roller coaster all around; very little went as planned, but overall, I think that’s okay. Things that would have triggered me in the past, didn’t. Things that at one time easily could have pushed me into a tailspin didn’t. Despite high stress levels, emotional questioning and searching, [...]
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Since my doctor’s appointment, I’ve been obsessing a bit. There’s something that’s thrown me a bit - something about the fact that, well, as my partner put it last night, I have this tendency when I relapse to be so dissociated when it happens that it always seems to surprise me when someone tells me [...]
Continue reading about Affirmations? 7 Things I’ve Been Telling Myself
So, yesterday I talked about going to see my doctor and the awkwardness that went along with it for me. I guess, just for the sake of keeping things as real as possible, I’ll go ahead and talk some about the appointment during which, as I told my partner when I got home, I had [...]
Continue reading about Eating Disorder Recovery, Doctor’s Appointments and Awkward Questions
I love my doc, don’t get me wrong. The disapproving looks when I acknowledge something that I’d rather not admit to, the shrugs that say, “you already know this, why are you asking me?” and the insistence that things will be okay because the human body has a remarkable ability to bounce back: all of [...]
Way back at the beginning of the month, I went with that traditional New Year experience and set some goals for myself. Mostly, I suppose it can be said that they were focused on looking forward and making some of the positive changes that I know could tremendously impact my life - being more assertive [...]
Continue reading about Eating Disorder Recovery: Looking at Goals
