(source)You are committed to routines without knowing you are committed to them. You maintain these routines even if you hate them. You are stuck in patterns you can’t break. You live within the eating disorder.
Yet a small change in your patterns can mean a beginning shift from an eating disordered way of life to [...]
Continue reading about Eating Disorder Recovery: Breaking Through Old Molds
I’ve been more than a little bit distracted lately, and I’ve been wrestling with some inner demons - and I can’t seem to shake my depression. That combination of things leaves me thinking that I’m just sleepwalking, and that I’m wasting energy and time.
The good part about sleepwalking though is that you do wake up [...]
Continue reading about Eating Disorder Recovery: Pushing Through the Rough Patches
One of the things that I regret the most about how ill I was for so long is that despite extended periods of recovery - and finally learning to uncover the meaning when the impulses creep back up - is that my body temperature still does not regulate well. I’m cold almost all of the [...]
I used to not think about the future; mostly, when I was ill and struggling, I didn’t think about the future because, well, I didn’t think that I had one (there’s a song with the lyric “thought I’d leave this world by 21″ which, over time the singer, when performing it live aged as she [...]
