One of the things that always seems to set me up is the sense of displacement. Right now, while I’m trying to get through any 10 different projects at one point in time and making a “valiant effort” to take the lead on figuring out relocating (which means working on my resume, her resume and finding housing because, well, I’m “the one with more time” it just seems as if everything in my life is even more chaotic than it normally is.
The truth of the matter is that, here it is and, as I’m writing this it’s not quite 2 in the afternoon, I’m more than halfway through a pint of beer at a coffee house near home.
I would be at home, continuing to clean up, get organized and to work on moving, except for the fact that I needed to fax out a housing application and to follow the fax up with a trip to the post office because I simply do not trust the process of electronic transmission (ironic since I’m someone who tends to make her living online).
Maybe it’s the beer in lieu of a solid lunch that’s got me out of focus. Maybe it’s that I lost my ability to sleep through the night a few weeks ago. Maybe it’s that, I don’t know, I’m struggling with burnout in the worst way possible. Maybe it’s just that I’ve hit a wall and don’t know how to keep going (or, quite possibly, my ingrown toe nail that’s just left me weird). Whatever it is, the chaos of right now just really sucks.
April 9th, 2008 at 1:58 pm
You call that chaos? I don’t think you know anything about chaos, you should try a real chaotic life. If a couple of little things are out of place its chaos, OK. Sound like a good time to me. Drinking beer at 2:00 in the afternoon! That is the life.