I used to spend a but more time looking at other eating disorder blogs; all of a sudden though, I’ve been a bit jammed up with work, stress and life and, well, I haven’t had time to surf the web (or do much of anything else really). Anyway, today, I did look at a couple of feeds that I have in a news reader and was stunned when I saw a reference to those who believe they embody the “healthy pro-ana movement.”
Now, the implication of what this is includes eating a limited amount - but an amount that is almost within a healthy range of calories. Then it’s followed up with “you can take that in, and you’ll still keep losing weight as long as you’re still working out.” What I don’t get is how it’s healthy.
If you’re still maintaining the “ana” element - which I don’t get in and of itself - if you’re still forcing yourself to expend at least as many calories as you’re eating, what’s healthy about it?
Maybe someone can explain it to me. Maybe it’s not so much that I don’t get it, but that it’s discouraging to me that there are people who look at what they are doing and see it as healthy when it seems to be anything but (especially when, within their stories are also moments of bragging about eating nothing all day be a can of light soup and a 60 calorie snack bar).
Maybe it’s not even that it seems unhealthy to me; maybe it has a lot more to do with the fact that it’s all about justifications and explaining it all away. Maybe it’s that I’ve seen other people use those same delusional explanations for what they are doing and end up heading down a remarkably dangerous path.
Now, I get caught up from time to time; I lose my ability to be rational and I know this. Frustrated as I get about having a million things to do, I complain more about boredom. I know that there are times in which I really hate cooking, but that I can’t stand not knowing how my food was prepared.
Justifications and excuses - I guess they’re always going to be there. It just seems so… over the top sometimes.
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